A Good Nights Sleep

David took the baby all last night and I slept.  I heard him when I got up, but went right back to sleep.  I feel so much better.  We are getting pretty attached to this little girl.  It will be hard to say good bye.  I'm fairly certain she will go to the grandma and eventually the mother.  She visits every day and has only missed twice in the last two weeks.  H. is starting to look just a little more roundy, and not so frog or bird like.  She is staying awake a little more.  She has very pretty bright eyes.

Sleep Deprivation-a form of Torture

I do remember when Anna was born feeling like I might lose my mind from lack of sleep.  So, I didn't forget entirely.  I just forgot how it can come and go.  Two nights ago were great, and yesterday I felt like a new woman.  Last night was not so good, and I'm exhausted before even starting the day.  I have a hard time taking a nap during the day, especially in the morning when H. is visiting mom and Anna is at preschool.  I will have to try this afternoon before my class.  I canceled on Monday because I was so tired I thought I might puke :)  I gotta go tonight.  Wish me luck.

Anna's topic

My sister Cyndi says that Anna has been talking to her a lot more on the phone, but no matter what Cyndi asks her, Anna wants to talk about Hennessy.  She told her, "if you want to see Hennessy, you'd better hurry up cuz she's going to her grandma in June."  She also told Cyndi, "Hennessy is our Foster, and we are praying that the best thing happens for her."  The other day she told Hennessy that her mama was not going to die.  I asked her why she thought that.  I guess I have always used the word sick, or not well when describing why a mom might not be able to take care of her own child, and we would get to.  I didn't know how to correct this misconception since it would involve explaining illegal drug use.   I just said she wasn't that kind of sick.  After I have been feeding H. for awhile Anna wants to horseplay next to me on the couch, or climb on me.  Miss Cheryl (Anna's pre-school) teacher gave me some good advice.  She said that when her 2nd one came along she would tell the baby, "you have to wait now while I help big brother."  Although baby obviously doesn't understand, big brother (who constantly hears the opposite told to him) does understand.  It has really been a great thing.  I told a sound asleep Hennessy that she had to be good in the swing because it was Anna's turn for Mommy to play with her.  You could see an immediate effect on Anna-very excited that it was her turn, and that she still got one.

Mother's Day

Mother's Day was fun.  A lot of people in the ward already knew about our new adventure from facebook and the regular gossip mill, but many did not.  You want to cause a stir, walk into church late with a baby carrier-gets people's attention.  Everyone was so sweet and congratulated us, asked a lot of questions, etc.  I asked Tamara Wallace if she would help me with the baby during my lesson.  She said, "are you kidding?"  and scooped her up.  H. got to go visit her mom after church for a special Mother's Day visit.  It is nice to have two children, even if it is only for a little while.

Like Moths to a Flame

I forgot what it was like to have a baby in public places.  When Anna was little I told my sister it was like having a puppy-people just gravitate towards you.  Perfect strangers strike up a conversation with you in the store.  H. especially attracts attention because of her incredible head of hair.  It is beautiful and black and stands up on top and there is a lot of it.  David keeps telling her how soft her hair is.

H.'s Mom

Today was the first day that H.'s mom did not show for her visit.  She is young - 17.  They told me on Thursday that she cried and cried when she had to say good bye to H. at the end of her visit.  She really loves her.  I hope she can pull it together.  They scheduled a special Mother's Day visit for her tomorrow-poor thing.  I cannot imagine how hard that would be.

Silly Me

Last night H. slept for 4 hours straight.  Woo Hoo!  Only problem was, when she woke up she was ravenous and sucked down the 2 oz. bottle faster than you can say boo.  Silly me, I gave her the second 2 oz. bottle and she also sucked that down.  After a nice burp, and a diaper change she gave it all back to me in the form of a projectile fountain all over the two of us.  New clothes all around were required.  It was awhile before we both got to bed.  I won't be foolish enough to make that mistake again... hopefully:)